The headache is gone and now this song is hit!

she went on and on and on and on at 1:33 pm

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Finally Digital Video assignment is all done. I shall spend my weekends with Mr Sandman.

And thanks to you guys, for your concern. I really appreciate it. Before I can continue with my ever-so-long rantings, I need to make sure I'm not going insomniac.

she went on and on and on and on at 3:11 pm

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Final diagnosis: Respiratory system - pneumonia, organism unspecified

I've got aliens inside me.

Interestingg.....

she went on and on and on and on at 1:51 pm

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I knew her time is coming. I didn't know it was this soon. When I answered the call from Fira yesterday, all I heard from the other end was her sobbing very hard. I could hardly make out the words she was saying. I felt scared already. At first, I thought if she was hurt. Yes and no. No, because she wasn't hurt like what I had in mine. Yes, because she is hurt about something. And it hurt me too. It was a total shock. I was totally taken aback that I didn't realise that my own tears are also falling to the ground. She was gone. She's.... gone. After the call, I couldn't face my friends. Yet, I couldn't move away from the crowded area. I just couldn't move. I tried to calm myself down because I know how emotional I can get. But no, it was hard. I called Dad, and then, it was my turn to say something, but not make any sense. He asked to calm down and take a breath. It's amazing how he can stay so calm, even while he' hearing me crying. I told him and he still remain calm. He said that her current condition says it all. We've got to expect the worst, he said. We've got to be prepared for that day. That day...

I have to thank Zak for calming me down after that. I could hardly control myself. I couldn't even look at them. There were a mixture of helpless and scared in my feelings. Helpless because I'm out of tissue. Scared because I'm afraid of suddenly bawling out. I called Fira again. She was still crying. My crying ended. It's my turn to calm her down. I told her to slow her breathing and stay calm. Inside, I couldn't help to continue. But for Fira, I need to show her that it's okay. She's way more affected than me. I was still at school after that. I need to complete an assignment. But I couldn't stay any further in school. I need to get out. I need to just... go.. go away for awhile. The news even had an affect on my own body.

Me and sis went to her house. Fira and Dad were already there. My whole relatives were already inside. Fira felt better. I felt better. At one short moment, I felt slightly thankful. I misunderstood Fira earlier, during the first call. She wasn't gone. She only had a few more days left. The fact that she is going only surface to me a few seconds later. But still, it's good to stay around and comfort her. At least everybody can have a last visit with her and just... hug. There was one time when everyone really thought it was the time. My aunts and uncles came in to hug her. Fira broke down. I broke down next to her. It was very emotional. But all's well till now. Just came back from her house. I started to realise how hard it is for my grandmother. To watch her own daughter slowly fading away. It must have been really hard for her. I saw her inside another room, all by herself, crying.

At least now, I'll be more prepared to get another call from Fira. But at the moment... I need the time to be there. I need to be there to comfort Fira, like I said, she's really more affected than me. I may or may not be present during some classes, but I try to make it. I'll make sure that everything moves on. It is sad, but I gotta stay strong. Now, you're wondering, why am I talking about this? Well,... some problems you just can't solve by yourself, no matter how good you are at dealing with things. It's also to say that even though I am sad, I'm going to be fine. These things need time. So perhaps maybe, I'll stay away from being in the internet too long. The blog may take a longer time to be updated, but I assure you I'm not going away for a long time. Maybe this entry can make you just realise how precious life is. Treasure your loved ones deeply. Nobody wants to lose anybody. Nobody wants to lose a friend, an aunt, a partner, a daughter, a mother or anyone. But this is how life goes.

Take care you peeps. I'll still be blog-hopping. You can still talk to me. To my gang, Zak, Noi, Yana and Sara, I so do not want to end up like the post-overwork-Yana (no offence bud =)) incident. I may just stare out blankly or start to be more quiet. You gotta give me some space of my own for a few days. But I don't want to stray away from you guys or vice versa. I can still hang around and listen to the crapness right? =) ... =) This is caled One Last, from Taufik's debut album Blessings. I'll see you around....

she went on and on and on and on at 9:35 pm

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I don't like the weather nowadays. Feels so depressing. It's not the same type of rain where you can cuddle up in bed and fall asleep. Or is it I'm under the weather againn? Sniff, sniff. Darn blocked nose.

On Thursday, oh boyy... it was a disaster, sort of. It was Matthew's birthday and we had no idea about it. We were on the stairs, on our way to STSC as a class. Then, Eric approached Matthew and offered a handshake. Eric, as usual, earlier on he had made that same offer to someone and he pulled his hand away and did something... Don't know ah, something like you suddenly fixed your hair before the other person can shake it? Yea, like that. Well, Matthew knew what was gonna happen, and all of a sudden, he was like "Fuck youuu ahhh! Fuck you! Fuck youuuu!" All in front of me, Nurul and Zak. And he started laughing and everyone started laughing. As for me? I was shocked lah. Suddenly he say like that like nothing. And I had no idea what happened next cos suddenly, they were like .. "Ehh! Ehh! Liza turned on, sia! Liza turned onn!", "Now you know know how we feel, right?" The last one was from Irwin, I'm sure. Like what the eff? Why is it suddenly about turned on? My goodness, it was chaotic. I ended up laughing my buts off reallll bad that I collapsed to the ground in ... tears. Hahahah, laughing tears. I couldn't help it. I cannot stop laughing off the stupid accusations. "Ehh! Liza crying! She's crying, leh!!" That was Zak.. she sounded so shocked. Everybody was laughing so hard, lmaaoo!

While we wait outside the class, they continued talking about it. It started to die down, then Zak and Yana joked with each other. Till Yana grabbed her hands and started to tickle her. And from my and the rest point of view, it look like he's gonna molest her man! Yana, seriously, you looked like you were. Hahah! Maybe that's why Wei Zheng, Zak's imaginary boyfriend, started chasing Yana. The latter went over the wall and started running, and WZ followed suit. They ran and ran around the building and into the food court. The way WZ ran was utterly LOL-able. It was a weird running style. Hahha. Soon after, they came back with Yana 'arrested' by WZ. Hahahha. And I collapsed in laughters again. I tell you, my tummy was in pain from the constant laughing. It hurts reall bad liaoo.

Then after school, when everything is calm and peaceful (ha!), me, Nurul and Yana decided to go town to buy Sara's birthday present. Hahah, and guess where we went? Forum Toy R'Us. The guy is soo into airplanes, so we decided to get him a collectible type. Went around found some, but I had my doubts. In the end, we decided to go for this big Porsche collectible. Yana was holding it while we made our way to the cashier. I heard somethind and turned around. To see him falling forward awkwardly, along with the package. Loll! The way he fell.. like old man. He said he felt something on his knee and couldn't bend it for awhile, so he fell. Hahahahah! I took the box and exchanged it with another, ahahah, as if nothing happened, and I told Yana that I'll be holding it from then on. Heheheh.

As we were walking down towards Orchard MRT after McD dinner, there was this big gust of wind. I suddenly remembered a comment made earlier in the day, right before the whole Matthew's Fuck You incident, Yana said I was about to be picked up by the wind and be blown away. Hahah. Well, I remembered it and started to act like I was flying away. "Noiii! Help meee.. I'm flyinnggggg!!" I grabbed her hand and stood on my right left as the other leg was 'blown' away. And the thing was, Nurul really thought I was flying away. Cos she looked at me and saw my hair blowing sideways, and my left leg sticking out. Hahah, she scared I was really blown awayyy.. hahahha, we were laughing like mad dogs along the way.

Sara knew the present was for him, but acted like it wasn't, lol. And I think it was kinda stupid of us to walk around school with a big bag with the wrapped pressie in it and acting like it's not his. Lol! And I found out that the 2 boyfriends and slut of mine stood me up.. lol. They can't make it for the gathering, oh darrnnnn. Oh well. After school on Friday, Zak, Nurul and Yana tagged along to PS cos I was hunting for a belated birthday present for Usha. I so have no idea what to buy and I'm extremely broke... ok, maybe not extremely, I'm watching my money here. So I decided to just be simple. Bought this fancy bag at Spotlight, then went ahead to buy chocolates and sweets. By that time, Yana left to meet Syarah, and we 3 girls went to had lunch at McD,.. again. Hahah, the twister fries rock, =). At home, I just put the chocolates and sweets into the bag and taa-dahh.. a simple present. A bag of goodiesss and Usha loves chocolates and the Campino sweets reminds me of the time where we used to buy it before coming to school at that Mama shop, ehehhe.

There were Zhen Ning, Syahirah, Hui Yu, Yahui, Choon Yang, Dharni, Yao Wei, Joel and Kiang Han, who still looked the same and had never grown taller. Hehehhe. As we were crossing the road, Dharni had this big stereo kinda thing on the sides of his bag and he started dancing to the music. Farnie. We had dinner at Mak's Place along Upper Changi Road. Glenn and Adleen later came along. We took piccies, give presents and laughs a lot. Oh yea, that place... it's funny. Their coke float is funny. They give you this glass with the ice-cream inside, but the coke is in the can, unopened. Hahha, it's a manual coke float. Ad said that was the quote of the day for her, ahaha, manual coke float, anyone? ;) Then Kiang Han got sick cos he had to finish this place which he wanted but the rest didn't. So he finished it and felt sick. Went to look for the toilet but couldn't find so we went to another alley and puke. To thing that I saw a waterfall coming out of him... 0_0

Now everyone in the family has a handphone. 'Cept for the kid brother, he can have a toy phone =D. Can I have a new phone tooo? I want a lot of things now.. I want an orange Creative Zen (not IPod, haha, Sara convinced me not to get an IPod), a new bag, new shoesss, new clothes and lots of money. Hahah, birthday's cominggg :D Right, I better start on that audio assignment.. ahh.. nightmare..

she went on and on and on and on at 7:38 pm

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Ooohhh yes. I kick some major horny asses today. Well,... just an ass. Remember that 'fuck you' incident? It's been going on for a week now. Irwin, especially, is such an assy ass. Cool off the darlings, the holding hands thingy and all. At first it was harmless fun, I even played along. But too much is well... too much. =/ Last night, Zak, Yana, Noi, Sara and me discussed via MSN about what we have to present for today's CD class. We decided on this trust game concept. Meaning, we picked out certain people and asked them to closed their eyes while we do something to them. It's up to them if they wanna 'trust' us that we're not doing anything .. hmmm.. harmful to them. ;) Noi picked Yueyi. Zak wanted Wei Zheng. As for me? You can say it's 'sweet revenge' for me.

She's gonna blindfold Yueyi, before letting her see a bottle of mayo and a spoonful of them in front of her. Lolll! Then, after blindfolding, Noi quickly took some wet tissue and threw at Yueyi. The look on her face when the tissue hit her was utterly hilarious! After several 'mayo' being tossed towards her, her reaction was .. hahahaha. As for Zak, she didn't get to do hers cos she let me do my stunt first. Darn. I would realllly like to see feet powder all over his hair. :D Now now. My stunt. Hahahahah! Okok. I decided to bring all the different types of makeup. I took the brightest of the bright colour of lipstick. I don't own such colour, eck. Only my Mom has, lol. I can't believe how many colours she have... Purplee..?!? Goodness! So, I brought pink/blue/green combo eyeshadow, so pink blush, the lipsticksss, eyelash curler and blue mascara... LMAOO!! My mom don't used thatt! It was given to me.. ahhah, but I never never use it!!In fact.. I won't even tell my Mom about it.. noo.. imagine if she really wore itt! And the fact it expires already, hehehehe.

Oh, so drifting away. Now, well, I called out for Irwin. "Now I know you like being girly, you're so metrosexual and all. So vain and all..." Hhahaha, his face changed immediately and I took out all the items and placed it in front of him. LMAOO! Everybody then started to clap,.. lol. I feel so evil. Lol! But he was being very cooperative. Hahah, he kept his eyes closed when I draw his face with pink lipstick. Lol! Lots of blush on the cheeks and nose. There's even a smiley face, =) and ^-^, on both of his cheeks. With eyeliner. Whahahahha! And blue eyeshadow on his chin. Sadly, didn't get to use the blue mascara. Hahha, I wasn't thhhat mean to put that on him la. I mean, I wasn't sure if he can remove it after that. Hahha. After seeing his face on the mirror and lots of laughter later,... "Now that's for you get for being horny with me. You try some more, you won't know what hit you next. ... I'm sure you're not the only one, so this is a 'warning' to the others too." And an innnocent smile ends the presentation. =)

I was sure he can remove the lipstick and all. But to no avail.. ahhaha. It. Just. Won't. Come. Out. Then I started to wonder if the lipstick was expired too.... ahhaha, and I just had to say it out loud and Irwin went.. Noooooo!! Hahha, so we went off with the pink still on his eyelids. Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha. Ha!!!

Dinner with Usha, Adleen, Syahirah, Kiang Han, Yaowei, Yahui, Li Qiu, Choon Yang this Friday. I hope Eugene and Yihan can make it. I hope Poh Siang can make it. I hope my favourite slut Anishka can make it. I can't wait for this Friday. Ussshhaaaa. My missing girlfriend. I kept missing her calls, darn. But can't waittt. Yippyyy. I need to get a bday present for her. There goes my pay, ehehhe.

CSI NY... wow... it's all .. bluee.. hahha. Miami is like so orangey, Las Vegas seems.. dunno.. natural? Ha, New York is really blue.. kinda depressing. But hey, still CSI :D Hope Gary won't be so hard as stone on the face as Horatio.

she went on and on and on and on at 8:34 pm

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