I had such a weird week this week. I'm worried it's depression. But I have no idea what I'm depressed about. I just feel... low, down, tired and dazed most of the time. Even on my birthday, I only got cheered up for just awhile, then I resort to being quiet and just staring out. I didn't even talk much during family dinner and that is strang I tell you.

I don't know why, I really don't know. Just thinking about it makes me more.. makes me feel more lower..I'll get more tired, feel more exhausted even though I try to get more sleep, I still feel .. depressed.

Don't worry, I felt better soon after. I think it's the female thing, bhaha! I don't know, but I do feel better after each day. I feel better now, I'm smiling like the idiot I used to be.

Yesterday, we (Yan, Zak, Noi and me) almost got thrown in the jail. Hahah! No. Hehhe. We were going to Changi's Women Prison to film outside the gate. But we decided to ask the guards outside first whether we're allowe to do that or not. He said ok, so we stood outside, trying to find the right position to fit the gate and the signboard in one shot. Then the guard said that the big bosses upstairs said we cannot film. So we decided to go to the main road and just film the pathway up. As we were heading back, the guard came running after us. Lol, a bit weird I find it. Like what could possiblity happen? Eheh, then he explained that the big bosses saw us to their cameras that we were shooting the scene. We so didn't, we were mostly arguing with one another where exactly to film, that's all, haha. But the guard say they saw us do something so they want our names and IC number. Like watta? They're afraid that we're gonna released it to the media. Like really, it's for educational purposes, it's for our freaking assignment.

Owell, we went back up. Noi wore her 'just-released-from-jail' getup and we started to film her walking up the path to the main road. Then, there was this shot where we had to take the signboard and her walking pass it. But the stupid traffic light! It's so fast that we can't take a proper shot cos there were vehicles parked in front of the signboard and from the cameraman's view, it's not nice. So while we were waiting, there's this lorry of banglas. Hahah, they noticed us and started making noises. What's worse was that Zak started filming them and asked Yana to wave at them so they waved back. Lol! It was hilarious, ahaha the banglas were so on. They were pretty excited to be in camera. Hahahha. Crazy people. As the night slowly approached, we wrapped it up. Hahha. It was fun fun fun. Can't wait to film again. But before that, I need to finish the script first, argh, tough work. I hope I get that done so that I can get my STSC story done.

Today, me and Noi went back to Pasir Ris library to complete our CIP hours. She came back from the SpongeBob movie launch and she said that it's actually free! Like what the hell?? I thought there were tickets for the movie? No, anyone can go inside to watch the movie. Noooo!! Ah, I should have just agreed to come right? Guess I just catch the movie with the family.

So, we already got started stock taking the library books at the children section when this boy sat on the floor behind me and opened up a book. Noi was doing stock take at the other corner so it was just me, the kid and his brother at the corner in that aisle. "Hi." I just kept searching for the book, I didn't even heard the hi from the boy. "Hi." Then I realised that the kid was talking to me, so I turned around and the kid was just looking up at me, his mouth was just gaping at me. "Hi." Loll! The whole 'introduction' reminds me of SpongeBob. Hahahhaha. Hi. HAhahah! The boy is just freaky. So I hi back to him. And he just look at me. I tell you, it was freaky. Then he started talking to, his brother just sat at the corner, reading a book. Then he said he gob no books to read at that aisle. Well ya, because you're at the Malay books section, that's why. And he just had this confused look on his face, ahahah! But the freakier part was that he stood so close to me, like what is he doing? He was just freaky la. Hahah, then his grandmother I think called out to him and he went off. Lol! Didn't see him again after that. Hahahha, even though the hi part was so strange, it was actually funny. Loll!

I'm glad that I'm back. Hahha, the usual self. Because I didn't like the feeling when I was feeling down. It's so disturbing, really. But I'm glad that it's over and I'm feeling better, yay! I'm no sicko! Ok whatever. Now, I wanna upload piccies! :D

she went on and on and on and on at 6:07 pm

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What a tiring week I say. I've been waking up late for something since last week. Was late for work, had to take a cab, and was late for school today, and had to take a cab again. And here I am, playing Solitaire and Dynomite at this hour, when I should be sleeping and dreaming of coming to school tomorrow. Tomorrow, oh.. tomorrow. HR Presentation. I'm sorry I have to say this, but I'm pretty pissed la. Some of you guys who are in my group might be reading this, but what the heck, this is my blog, I say what I'm feeling. Yes. I'm pissed. About this HR presentation. Like wtf? I'm sorry, but some of you guys really couldn't give a damn. Like really. No one even dared to come up to me to ask properly what's happening before running off to do your own stuff. I'm sorry. If you don't give a damn, I don't give a damn. I just put you one role ya. Then you say your lines. Oh, and I just so happened to write those lines for you. And I happened to buy all those stuffs required for the presentation, the things I had to carry, go up and down just to find a freaking Sprite bottle. Yea, I could have just approach one of you guys to buy the stuffs for me. But oops, you guys don't know anything, ooo. I'm too frustrated to explain from A-Z anymore. I just want to get this presentation over and done with and possibly give a sigh of relief - one less load off my shoulders. I know that it won't be long enough for me to suddenly rush to concentrate on other assignments which are oh so drawing near.

I'm not sure what's going on with me anymore. I'm getting tired actually. Or actually, feeling tired. But hey, I slept for over 12 hours on Sunday. I'm sure that made up for this tiredness I'm feeling. Oh maybe is it guilty I'm feeling? I don't know.. me waking up so late on Sunday made me miss my visit to grandma's house. It's been a long time since I visit there and I know... I can tell... I can feel it. Even though she doesn't say anything or show it in her voice or face. She's sad that I haven't been visiting her for a long while. I'm sad too. And I miss her too. It hurts to me to know that I'm disappointing her. Maybe I should just really take a break from it all. Work, the rushing, heck, even the wonderful creation called television. Well,.. I'm glad that I thought ahead and took a whole month off from work, though I'm only working like 4 times a month, but whatever, no work for a month! My Saturdays are now just free for me to just catch up. I know that I will be visiting my grandmother. I wanna tell her how sorry I am to just leave her behind all of a sudden and now visiting her. Then, I just wanna R&R. Oh, the assignments? Owell, I find something to deal with it =)

Oooohh.. it's midnight. Happy birthday me. I'm legal. Hahahha. Wanna know something? I forgot that .. ermm.. today's my birthday yesterday (which technically means today, but...). Ha, honestly, I think I was still in that confused/dazed moment. It only struck me when Nurul reminded me about it. Hehhehe. Oh well, I still got that HR presentation to worry about. It ain't over until I say it's over ;)

Now, again, I'm truly sorry if the this entry has offended anyone. I just say what's on my mind. If you want to, just come and talk to me and we can settle things. Peacefully, ya.

Oh, and get well soon Mat! Darn those mosquistoes right? I think we should have a new public holiday, Spray Mosquisto Day. Look, I'm already crapping. Ok, get well soon, take your medicine oki? Hope to see you around soon.

she went on and on and on and on at 11:16 pm

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This is the latest I've been to a classs, lol. 1 1/2 hour latee. Thanks to a last minute decision to watch Constantine last night, eheh. Was planning to catch up on my sheeps counting, but heck, watch movie with gang, sureeee. The movie was funny la, shocking at some point. And Noi always jerk backwards whenever the shocking part came, lol.. it was soo funny, we were the only bunch laughing, hee. By the time the movie was over, I was about to fall asleepp, ohh, the tirednesss. Took a cab home by the time I alighted at Kembangan, don't wanna walk anymore, hah. So right now, typing this in class, hehe, I mean, there's only 30 minutes left before class end, so heck, I'm going in the net laa.

she went on and on and on and on at 10:24 am

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Now this is lovely. Something simple yet unique, ahah. I want my Girls Aloud ceeedeeeeee, grumbles.

Happy Vday people! Maths test today was alright, very mind-boggling at certain parts but all's good. Didn't had time to buy pressie for my peeps, but they were all so sweet to give me pressies! Lotsa sweets and chocsies! Yum, yum. After we're done with Java test on Wednesday, I'll buy something for you guys, yar? :D

Ok, right after the test, I went off to cafe to meet the peeps there for the present-exchange 'ceremony'. Fira was already done with work and was walking around, waiting for me. She showed me where to put the pressie and wow. Compared to my present for Yani, the rest were in big bags and were decorated prettily. Awww.. prettyy presents, I want to take them alll!! Asyik was working as well. Hmmm, about him. I don't know. I mean, now everyone in cafe knows, they can't stop teasing about it to me. I just had to bear with the teasings. But the thing is, I'm not so sure how I feel towards him. I mean, I know how he feels, but ... So, I'm not so sure how to respond to him. Continue the safe flirtings? Or, you know, go ahead? I don't know. Yea, the issue is still not solved yet between me and him, but we're both good friends, talking good now. Owells, lemme say what my gift was yar? I got it from the restaurant manager. Wahhh, lucky! Sure to be something wonderful. And I was right. I got this nice bracelet with my name customised on it. Funny thing was everyone else was more excited about opening the gift than me. "Faster open la Liza! I wanna see!" And Asyik was standing next to me and he said that Aishah wouldn't have bought it if he hadn't suggested it. Oh, how .. sweet.

Then I had to run off cos I'm suddenly feeling devoted in studying Java. The rest haven't arrived yet and were meeting up later and opening their gifts together. Sad I had to miss that. Oh nevermind. I expect another present this Saturday from Fira. I want my bday present!! :D

Now, back to Java,.. grumbles.

she went on and on and on and on at 9:41 pm

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Okie dokie, bear with me for a moment ya. Apparantly, the server went kaput for awhile and everything's gone! Ok, calm down. I try and settle this ya. Will continue blogging when the new layout is done :D Actually it is done, but I'm having trouble with filters and transparency! Arghghghg!

she went on and on and on and on at 5:13 pm

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I told myself not to cry. I already had a good cry last month. I'm fine. I'll miss her. We'll miss her. But life has got to go on..

she went on and on and on and on at 10:38 am

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Why is it that when I'm suddenly mentally prepared to come back to the blogging world, some other people are like going away. Noooooo... Mat! Where did your blogging muse went? Hehhehe... I think your muse is trapped somewhere in that lady's open armpit. Hhaahah, evil evillll. The layout is shocking. Wickedly shocking. But anyway, hope you come back soon oki? I personally felt even more depressed not able to blog so often. Haizz... owellss.. Oh, speaking of layouts, Noi changed her layout. Finally girl. :D It's now retroly modern! ... Or is it modernly retro?

A lil bried description of what my video assignment is all about, cos I feel like talking about that. Hmm.. well, my story is of April and Mark, bro and sis. April made Mark believe that she's pregnant on April's fool, haa, typical. I cannot watch my own video anymore,.. I die of laughter... once.. my tummy hurtss. Anyway, hmm.. I tell what the other did. Nurul had to use my Afir anf Zak's sis for her video. It's all kids and her story is about kid's love or something along there. It's hilariously hilarious! Just watching (and hearing) Afir makes the whole family erupts to bits of laughters. Yana's a like a trailer.., no? Is it? I haven't watch his yet. But it's dark-themed, as usual. No kick la boy if you keep having dark-theme. You should do some happy-happy assignments. Sara's is a mockumentary on how to tell if your money notes are real or fake. I haven't watch that too. And Zak's one is a murder. Wife sees hubby with mistress. Mistress ends up dead the next day. Mom charged, gets the death penalty. But she's innocent. Real killer is the maid. But the overall result is a bit funny la. The dead mistress scene has the chopper, but no blood. Haha, use PhotoShop, she says. And I happen to be the mistress. Not only do I have to play dead on the bed, I got to flirt with the hubby. The hubby is not hubbilious at all, mind you. =) But that Saturday was fun, fun, fun. Other than playing mom to Afir, it's all funn. I want another acting gig! Bahhh!

Right. So. That was assignment 1. The next one is a group one. Choose one video from either Zak's, Yana's, Noi's or mine and continue the video from there. We chose Zak's video since it's the only one where we can continue. So, maid is now known as the killer. Mom is released from jail. Mistress twin wants revenge. Catch the drift yet? ;) It's still undergoing planning, but I'm sooo excited! So I'm leaving it here for the day cos the planning right now is soo heated. Woah.. calm down people! It's only an assignment =)

she went on and on and on and on at 9:27 pm

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