-- Saturday, March 25, 2006
i would have finally started to write about how the bbq went, the drama and the whatsoever that happen there. i would also talk about how i spend 2 1/2 days recovering from 1 day of lost sleep. i would also squeaked about how i finally got an A for my results. for something that i thought i would NEVER excel in. music for moving images. but i fail to get an A for something that i like - visual effects (plus the production in it). i once again got a b+ for that.
but i won't. i don't wanna talk about those stuffs above. cos i'm feeling down.
i'm mourning. for a lost friend. everyone at work will miss her.
it was truly a shock to wake up in the early morning and find a msg in your phone saying that your friend had passed away. i seriously thought he was joking because he didn't explained anything about it. but then he called and he explained everything. i was very very very upset. heartbroken, stunned, just speechless.
it happened all of a sudden. there was no warning. she just.... collapse. her parents thought she just fainted. but she actually went ... away already.
all day i've been trying not to talk about it even thought it's the conversation topic of the day at work. because just the thought of it makes me on ther verge of tears. but i didnt shed any tears.
for the first time at work, i was stone silent. i don't communicate properly to the customers and i kept to myself. when my colleagues talked about it, i walked away.
but when i called my cousin to kirim salam to her family, because i couldn't leave work due to overwhelming customer numbers, we started talking about the incident. and i shed those tears that i've been keeping inside. all the emotions just poured out as i tried to speak properly on the phone.
i worked part time. i just saw her a month ago.... we only had a brief 5 minute talk before i had to go back home. then jsut last week, my cousin and i were just talking about her and wanting to meet her.
its all so sudden.
she's my age. 19. and without warning she's.. gone. police are saying it was unnatural death. i dont know. i don't think i can handle anymore.
and im so saddened that i couldnt see her one last time, but work was a bitch.
but one thing remains for sure. she's at a better place. He loves her more and very much. she's being taken care of now.
like jackson say, life goes on. but you can't help to feel the sadness. i feel for her parents because they saw her just collapse and .. went.
its nice, to let it out. i can't let it out at home, i cant. but in here, through words, it feels better. my heart doesnt feel heavy anymore. my sadness doesnt overwhelm me anymore.
i shall never forget her. she's such a carefree girl. so full of bouncy personality. a fun friend to have. she will always have us all at work to remember her. we wont forget the friendship we all shared with her.
and in another perspective. life is indeed short. you may never know what's coming next. life is meant to be lived to the fullest, loved the ones that needed to be loved.
so everyone. hug the people tht you care about.
i love you all.
she went on and on and on and on at 10:21 pm
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-- Saturday, March 18, 2006
I had a marvellous time during bbq 2 days ago. Absolutely terrific, and to be appreciated for the amount of planning and work dedicated to the bbq, amazing feeling. So much so I want to plan another bbq. But this time, for the people that deserves it.
Other than that, I had to spend 2 days to recover from the sleep I lost.
And I'm off to bed now. Make that 2 1/2 days.
she went on and on and on and on at 11:59 pm
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-- Friday, March 10, 2006
CLICK IT AND YOU'LL SEE I'M IN LOVE!!
I'm sooo in loveeee.
And it's at a cheaper price toooo.
Ahhh... so prettyyy... I'm so delightfully happyyy.. oooooo
So me, sis, Noi, Zak and two of her online friends went to the IT show on Thursday. Went around, played with the cameras, asked for the price. I also got to hold a 350D AND play with it as well. I almost didn't want to put it down and just walk away. So gorgeous.
Then we went upstairs where I got my 40G portable HDD. Noi got herself a 512mb thumbdrive for just 45$$$!!!
And we got to tired to look for my sis new radio and mp3 player. So we went for dinner at mcd. Hilarious chattings we had.
And us 4 girls are meeting again on Monday for some late Breeks lunch and major BBQ shopping after that.
Oh, the camera. The one at the show was 849$. Well, before that, I managed to find a shop that is selling the same camera at a lower special price. So special they won't print it on the ad. So I went down and asked and it was must lower. So I skipped the one at the show and went to buy the camera this morning.
Guess what, they reduced the price even more!!! I was like so delightfully high. And the free gifts!! Camera kit (with lens cleaning kittt!!!) and a 512mb SD card. And an umbrella, lol, another free gift.
Oh gee, I was thinking of hiding the camera from the girls till Monday, but owell. I'm too excited I have to let it outtttt. And I'm loving the Super Macro. You can take pictures as close as 0cm! Ahhhhh!!!
I'm gonna place the camera in the drawer next to the bed, wheeee. I'm so glad I bought it. Finally, new camera. The other one went to hell. I suddenly so inspried to take pictures and I have all this new ideas. And just in time for the upcoming bbq. Yayness.
Evilness update
- the brother is BANNED from using my card reader
- he asked me to take a pic of him wit the cam and I zoomed into his nose
- it was completed dark, yet detailed
- eewww.
she went on and on and on and on at 11:02 pm
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-- Saturday, March 04, 2006
Okay, so here's what happened to me this week.
Was studying for the last paper. I had printed out all my notes and was going through past year papers online. Then the screen went blank and my mouse was deactivated. At that time I felt lucky to have my notes with me already. So I casually just restart the computer again and log in. While scrolling, the same thing happened again. From there I had restarted the computer about 3 times. And because everytime the mouse died, the monitor died as well. So I thought the mouse cable was loose, but it was not. It was perfectly slotted in.
So I gave up. Called it day, been on the computer since the afternoon. I told everyone that the computer is being cranky and that it is rosak. I went into my room, packed my bag for the next day and went out to the living room again. Guess what?
That fucking brother of mine switched on the computer again!!! I have specifically declared to the whole house that the computer is ROSAK! Those with brain activities should know that it means let the darn computer rest!!! But FUCK NOOO!!
He wanted to chit chat with girls in MSN. That fucking whoreboy. I screamed at him that the computer is rosak but he just ignored. So I ignored him back and thought to myself I will complaint to the father when he gets home.
A few minutes gone by and I was back in the room reading thru notes. Then I heard the tv outside switched off. But no one touched the remote. I saw him switching the tv back on. I went outside to see what he's screwing up next. Then I heard it.
BANG!!!!
My mom freaked out. I thought I was the only one who heard it. But everyone heard it. The bang felt so near. Then it happened again.
BANGGGGGG!!!!
I looked over to the computer. Saw that the monitor went black. AND SMOKE COMING OUT OF THE COMPUTERRR!!! I yelled at him in the face before I myself freaked out. I told someone to switch off the computer plug. He suggested to throw water at the computer. Now he's a fucking stupid whoreboy.
The computer was switched off and the smell of burnt metal starts to float around the house. I'm telling you, I never felt so pissed before in my entire life. I'm pissed at him for being so fucking ignorant. Then mom starts to BLAME ME. Because I used the computer since like forever. Excuse me, the computer was invented so that you can use it for hours. Its purpose is to not shut down.
I screamed at everyone to go back to bed. I waited for dad to come back home. Once back, I told him everything. Then I cried. Because the whole thing was so emotional to me - mom blaming it on me, that non-brother of mine wanting to hook up girls online. And at that moment, it finally hit me that I lost every work of mine. It was fucking darn emotional.
So later I found out that the power supply died. And that the entire inside is filthy dusty. Next morning, the parents went to the repair shop. I went to school and told everyone. And they laughed. They were strangely amused that my computer exploded. Twice too. Oh, and that smoke actually appeared. Gee.
So later dad called, said the HD is fine. I finally confronted the whoreboy that it was all his fault. If only he hadn't switched it on like I said, this wouldn't happen. I mean, he's purpose to be online is to really chat. That's all. And check through hideous pictures of the girls' pictures on friendster. HIDEOUS!!! How productive it that?
So I'm getting my revenge.
The computer came back yesterday - complete with new power supply, new graphic card (whee!!) and even a new casing. It looked so pretty now. So, I was checking the computer, everything there where it should be. So off I went to delete one account. Then I changed the other 3 accounts as limited which makes only me and dad as admin. Then I randomly delete some of his stuffs. Well just mp3s and his HIDEOUS pictures.
I feel so proud. Oh! I forgot to delete his styleXP. Will do that.
Ah, so that's what happened this week. Very chaotic and I hate him even more. Next, is to figure out how to disable him not to use the internet. I feel so evil it's goooddd. He deserves it anyway. For being such an ass.
I can't wait for my friends to bully him during the bbq. I'm just gonna let my friends deal with him once we're there. Order him around, anything! MAKE HIM SUFFFERRRR!
edit - he's turning into a mat. that hideous overgrown hair that makes him look like the devil (matches his personality). he even asks whether he can get a piercing. FUCK NO!
she went on and on and on and on at 12:28 am
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