a lot of stuffs have been happening the last week. but i'm too stoned to recall them and list them all here.

i've been freelancing as a production manager for channel 5 promos since a week and a half ago. so far, it's been good. but i partically enjoyed the part where i have to call up a hunk from DOND and talk to him, and meet him in person! and later in the day, i got to see him shirtless!

it's too bad it was raining and i couldn't take out my camera to snap a video of that sinful scene. wahahaha.

and i got slightly sun burned on my arms from being out at macritchie the whole day filming. my feet even got tan lines from my sandals.

and while working there, apparantly, my colleagues have been praising me for what a good job i have done. some, outside mediacorp, have even asked for my name card!

now i have to come up with a name card! ogosh, my very own name card, wheeeee!

anyway, people have always pointed out how i look like chinese and that i don't have a malay accent. like what my talent from a recent shoot told me, i have a 'neutral' accent. singaporean. but cannot pin point to which slang i'm leaning to.

so i'll go "yea, yea, you're the millionth person to say that, yada yada, i get that ALOT yada yada". i basically told them i'm pure malay. fo sho!

but i got fed up i think finally and decided to do more digging. i grilled my parents and asked about anyone from their side of the family who has/had chinese roots in them.

lo and behold. my mom innocently said "you don't know your grandmother is chinese?"

WHAT?!

i know she LOOKS chinese. i didn't know she IS chinese!

OMG! I'm 3/4 chinese! i couldn't believe it, i was in awed when i found out.

the reason why i was clueless about my roots was because my grandmother doesn't have a 'chinese look'. i thought she was malay that could pass of as a chinese. i didn't know she was pure chinese.

turns out that my great-aunt from australia took care of her in the earlier days. they never got to know my great grandparents.

oh wait. if my great aunt from australia took care of my grandmother. in australia.

am i also part australian?!

omg, my sleepy head can't take this!!

she went on and on and on and on at 10:46 pm

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i was feeling a bit photoshop-py so i played around.




i just love the lighting on it :D

she went on and on and on and on at 12:27 am

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i think ch5 needs to have more deal or not deal: hunks special.

they are yummy. they are pretty. they are charming. they make funny faces on tv, which are altogether endearing.

the gals seems robotic and lifeless.

but omg the guys are delicious!

she went on and on and on and on at 10:03 pm

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yes. they called. after a year of not hearing back from them all ever again.

but apparently they remembered me when they needed a position to be filled.

i'm excited, no kidding.

it's gonna be a 2-week contract job as a production manager ch5 ident trailer. i'm starting this wednesday. since it's all rush-rush, how much i'm getting isn't decided yet.

but for thing for sure is the familiar feeling of being in a film project again. the stress, the drama, the late hours, the early wake up calls, the everything. i never thought i will miss it THAT much. especially the stress!

anyway, even before this came along, my uncle offered me a 3-month gig.

all of a sudden, everything is starting up for me. i gotta make sure i don't lose my chances and opportunities.

on a last note, i finally snapped at a colleague at cafe. indirectly actually. the person being referred to wasn't supposed to receive an angst-filled sms from me, which was supposed to be send to another colleague. but i guess i was feeling really pissed to not think properly when i was scrolling the contacts list.

i realised my mistake. i NEVER wanted for this to happen the way it did. to find out the way it did. that is why i came to this person face-to-face after i realised i send the sms to the person and said that we need to talk.

i had already apologised for making her feel whatever the person is feeling now, especially when i found out that tears were involved. i NEVER wanted to make anyone sad or cry especially. when we couldn't talk, i immediately called up the person after i was done with work and apologised again for finding out that way.

it's a terrible way to find out.

but all in all. i'm quite glad my emotions were thrown out like that. maybe finally, my emotions (and others') towards this person will be addressed.

can you believe it? because of me, there's going to be a cafe meeting to find out what's really happening between all of us?

in all honestly, this upcoming meeting should have been brought up a long time ago when the problem itself surfaced. too many have been angered for the past few months and now they are trying to resolve the matter?

i am so glad to be leaving the place. there really seems to be no order at all in cafe. only a couple of people are keeping the place alive and standing. i give you 2 guesses to who one of them is.

anyway, i'm starting my contract work on the day of the meeting. who knows whether i turn up. but if i dont, i know someone will speak on my behalf.

i loved the cafe. but i also hated it now.

hmmm. oh the dramas!

she went on and on and on and on at 4:30 pm

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mediacorp called!

omgosh!

she went on and on and on and on at 9:16 pm

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god bless her and her kids. may she get the help she truly needs.

she went on and on and on and on at 9:20 pm

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OMG!

this is what you get if you name your cat 'burger and fries'

oh and happy 2008!

she went on and on and on and on at 12:16 am

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